Long long story but Lion pulled something dramatic about a dream and WE all sat her down and had a 'talk'
From: Dorothy
Sent: Monday, February 18, 2008 4:37 PM
To: Witch
Subject: RE: Last night
Thank you and I understand busy, see you this evening!
From: Witch
Sent: Monday, February 18, 2008 4:33 PM
To: Dorothy
Subject: RE: Last night
Dorothy,
Thank you for sending this note. I apologize for not responding sooner, we have been a little crazy around here. I do appreciate your sentiments and hope we can continue to work towards the best for the children. That is all I have ever wanted. Thank you for being our partner in helping Lion in her time of need...and for all you do everyday to support my kids in there daily lives. Have a safe and fun trip. See you on the return!
From: Dorothy
Sent: Friday, February 15, 2008 9:33 AM
To: Witch
Subject: Last night
Hi Witch
I wanted to take a second and let you know that I felt really good about the three of us sitting down with Lion last night and I hope that it really helped her, I've been worried. I also wanted to tell you that I think through communication between you and I or you, Wizard and I that we can hopefully overcome some of the walls that we've built. Talking last night reminded me that we (you, Wizard and I) are not the important people in our situation, our children are and I want nothing more than to show them that we can function as a unit rather than as two units. I can honestly say that in the last few months I've allowed walls to built and have somewhat closed my mind but last night I saw what a difference it makes for our children when we are open minded, and do our best to function together. Do I think we'll be best friends and always agree, no but I do think that talking things through and seeing both sides will help us give the children our best. I hope you understand what I'm trying to say and do, this email is genuine and I can't say that I'll never build walls again but I can say I will do my best not to and do my best to communicate openly with you and Wizard.
Dorothy
Friday, February 15, 2008
Monday, February 4, 2008
Witts End
I'm sort of at my wits end...AGAIN, I'm tired of TinMan always being the bad guy in Wizards's eyes....its getting to a point that I think Wizard is like the typical step father with all his glares and constant ridicule....but he doesn't ridicule the child...he knows I'd never put up with that, he
ridicules the child to me, he calls it venting. When he gets mad at TinMan for not trying in school he calls him lazy, when he gets mad because TinMan didn't follow through or pay attention he calls him lazy or says he just doesn't get it and he never will, he thinks that constant punishment is the way to go, I think that giving him something to aim for like a weekend at his grandma's is the way to go and let me tell you its already working, his planner looks awesome, he has things written in it like I requested, he's studying for a quiz right now and doesn't even realize he's studying. Wizard seems to believe that TinMan's room is the best place for him to study...no, its fucking loud and FREEZING cold...its colder than it needs to be because Wizard was too fucking cheap to dry wall the other cement walls in...but I digress.
I'm pretty damn bitter that I'm helping pay of 6 figures in debt that I had no hand in creating, Wizard's all pissed off because my debt is gone, yes its gone because of two of his bonuses but it still would've been gone in april without them so I just don't get it, we as families are becoming more and more segregated. I admit that at the beginning of the school year I thought Wizard was handling TinMan better than I but I feel that I'm the one to take over from here; and now all I hear from him is 'we'll see' and its like he wants the child to fail....which hurts me, he says he wants him to suceede so badly but I don't know, just a feeling and just the way he talks.....
There was an inicident with Witch ...well there was and wasn't...I guess she's holding Emily (thomas and friends train) over Munchkin's head to get him to use the potty, Glenda has a feeling that Munchkin is holding his poop until Witch gets home so that he can poop in the potty and get emily...how fucking sick is this woman?! On another note she wants to take him to see the real
Thomas in May...funny thing is that's what I wanted to do, I really wanted to share that experience with him and the rest of the kids ....Wizard said, I don't know what to tell you, we don't have the money and we have a softball tournament. I told him to do what he wanted (its our week when she wants to take him) and that what he and Witch did with their children was none of my business, that i had no idea why he called to ask me what was going on, he had the calendar too and could've checked AND that he knew it would upset me and he had already made up his mind so why fucking call? I told him that we never do anythign fun with the kids and I'm not talking about spending money, I'm just talking about doing something fun, period...well that
doesn't happen in this house, if we're not on a field we're not doing anything....total BS and I'm completely over it.
Then there's the fact that he acts like he's 17, like he doesn't have a clue how to be a man and I'm beyond tired of that shit. Even after reading my chat with Cougar about him being childish and that i felt like he wanted someone to take care of him more than he wanted a parnter ....he was doing really well being the same guy I dated for almost 2 years and then like a switch he's back to this immature 17 year old and it totally repulses me, I mean I want a man, not a boy....how do you say that to somone? It has nothing to do with physical appearance he's still as amazingly gorgeous as ever physically but its like he wants me to mother him in one way and then be
his lover in another and I just can't do that....being his mother is such a turn off and then I have to deal with the whining and the funky ass voices he uses ugh...not during sex or anything like that but just throughout the course of a day and he didn't do that before...its got to change.
ridicules the child to me, he calls it venting. When he gets mad at TinMan for not trying in school he calls him lazy, when he gets mad because TinMan didn't follow through or pay attention he calls him lazy or says he just doesn't get it and he never will, he thinks that constant punishment is the way to go, I think that giving him something to aim for like a weekend at his grandma's is the way to go and let me tell you its already working, his planner looks awesome, he has things written in it like I requested, he's studying for a quiz right now and doesn't even realize he's studying. Wizard seems to believe that TinMan's room is the best place for him to study...no, its fucking loud and FREEZING cold...its colder than it needs to be because Wizard was too fucking cheap to dry wall the other cement walls in...but I digress.
I'm pretty damn bitter that I'm helping pay of 6 figures in debt that I had no hand in creating, Wizard's all pissed off because my debt is gone, yes its gone because of two of his bonuses but it still would've been gone in april without them so I just don't get it, we as families are becoming more and more segregated. I admit that at the beginning of the school year I thought Wizard was handling TinMan better than I but I feel that I'm the one to take over from here; and now all I hear from him is 'we'll see' and its like he wants the child to fail....which hurts me, he says he wants him to suceede so badly but I don't know, just a feeling and just the way he talks.....
There was an inicident with Witch ...well there was and wasn't...I guess she's holding Emily (thomas and friends train) over Munchkin's head to get him to use the potty, Glenda has a feeling that Munchkin is holding his poop until Witch gets home so that he can poop in the potty and get emily...how fucking sick is this woman?! On another note she wants to take him to see the real
Thomas in May...funny thing is that's what I wanted to do, I really wanted to share that experience with him and the rest of the kids ....Wizard said, I don't know what to tell you, we don't have the money and we have a softball tournament. I told him to do what he wanted (its our week when she wants to take him) and that what he and Witch did with their children was none of my business, that i had no idea why he called to ask me what was going on, he had the calendar too and could've checked AND that he knew it would upset me and he had already made up his mind so why fucking call? I told him that we never do anythign fun with the kids and I'm not talking about spending money, I'm just talking about doing something fun, period...well that
doesn't happen in this house, if we're not on a field we're not doing anything....total BS and I'm completely over it.
Then there's the fact that he acts like he's 17, like he doesn't have a clue how to be a man and I'm beyond tired of that shit. Even after reading my chat with Cougar about him being childish and that i felt like he wanted someone to take care of him more than he wanted a parnter ....he was doing really well being the same guy I dated for almost 2 years and then like a switch he's back to this immature 17 year old and it totally repulses me, I mean I want a man, not a boy....how do you say that to somone? It has nothing to do with physical appearance he's still as amazingly gorgeous as ever physically but its like he wants me to mother him in one way and then be
his lover in another and I just can't do that....being his mother is such a turn off and then I have to deal with the whining and the funky ass voices he uses ugh...not during sex or anything like that but just throughout the course of a day and he didn't do that before...its got to change.
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Super Bowl Sunday
WOOO HOO for the NY Giants!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it couldn't have happened to a better team or a better family!
Now for the fun...I've not been really great at this whole journaling thing, I started the year strong and boom stopped and as soon as I stopped journaling my thoughts,venting my feelings and appreciting my blessings I have been an emotional mess, only on the inside, the outside still looks the same...very sad though that I've been struggling and knew all along the only thing that i needed to do was pick up my laptop and take 20 mins or so to 'get it all out', let it go, give to God/the universe.
The challenges that I'm having are challenges that every other parent and step parent have but some are different. My mom for example, i wrote a long letter and email attaching TinMan's latest report card and the consequences for said report card and I must've really hit home because she brought him home on time last night, even was nice enough to let me know they were on their way home. I feel blessed that she did that...yes, she should but I really appreciate her doing what I asked, it shows TinMan that she respects me, my word and what I'm trying to do for him and he in turn will respect me a little more. I never thought that TinMan adn I had a respect problem but I'm realizing that we do and I'm changing that. He has a lying problem that I'm hoping is just normal teen stuff and that here shortly...like now LOL he'll realize that telling us the truth about some things (nothing like drugs or sex or any of the bad stuff) that he's freeing himself from the burden or that he'll realize that tellling us the truth isn't really that bad. Can someone tell me if this whole parenting thing gets easier?!
I feel like i'm drowning and that I'm 'fighting' and uphill battle....my other challenge is Witch....she is just weird to me. If I try to explain the story that Wizard told me I'll screw it up but the gist is this she has manipulated Munchkin so badly that he's holding his poop and therefore constipating himself so that he can try and go poop in the potty so he can get a Thomas and Friends train called Emily; Glenda figured this out because he's been having issues pooping and he's NEVER had any issues and his diet hasn't changed and she said that she realized what was happening on Friday because when Witch got home he took off his pants and his diaper and ran to the bathroom and said I get Emily mommy....and Glenda said he had pooped himself badly that day...guess he couldn't hold any longer. HE even told me tonight that he had to go potty and if he did he would get Emily....mommmy said. how sick is that? what kind of person does that? We haven't even begun to potty train, he's 2 1/2 and honestly he's not ready, he's getting there but he's not ready; but Wizard says that Witch wants Munchkin to use the potty before his cousin that is also 2 1/2 so that she wins...some sort of sick game her and his sister in law have going on and have had going on for the last 10 + years. I just feel bad for Munchkin, Witch isn't willing to try any of the 'normal' stuff, her words were 'I think he's going to need more motivation'...I'm wondering how she could possibly know when we haven't tried anything?! I'm frustrated about this...and honestly I cried, I felt so bad for Munchkin, he's two and he just not ready. I just don't understand and what I have to remember is that I can not control her...just my reaction to her...ugh.
Now for the fun...I've not been really great at this whole journaling thing, I started the year strong and boom stopped and as soon as I stopped journaling my thoughts,venting my feelings and appreciting my blessings I have been an emotional mess, only on the inside, the outside still looks the same...very sad though that I've been struggling and knew all along the only thing that i needed to do was pick up my laptop and take 20 mins or so to 'get it all out', let it go, give to God/the universe.
The challenges that I'm having are challenges that every other parent and step parent have but some are different. My mom for example, i wrote a long letter and email attaching TinMan's latest report card and the consequences for said report card and I must've really hit home because she brought him home on time last night, even was nice enough to let me know they were on their way home. I feel blessed that she did that...yes, she should but I really appreciate her doing what I asked, it shows TinMan that she respects me, my word and what I'm trying to do for him and he in turn will respect me a little more. I never thought that TinMan adn I had a respect problem but I'm realizing that we do and I'm changing that. He has a lying problem that I'm hoping is just normal teen stuff and that here shortly...like now LOL he'll realize that telling us the truth about some things (nothing like drugs or sex or any of the bad stuff) that he's freeing himself from the burden or that he'll realize that tellling us the truth isn't really that bad. Can someone tell me if this whole parenting thing gets easier?!
I feel like i'm drowning and that I'm 'fighting' and uphill battle....my other challenge is Witch....she is just weird to me. If I try to explain the story that Wizard told me I'll screw it up but the gist is this she has manipulated Munchkin so badly that he's holding his poop and therefore constipating himself so that he can try and go poop in the potty so he can get a Thomas and Friends train called Emily; Glenda figured this out because he's been having issues pooping and he's NEVER had any issues and his diet hasn't changed and she said that she realized what was happening on Friday because when Witch got home he took off his pants and his diaper and ran to the bathroom and said I get Emily mommy....and Glenda said he had pooped himself badly that day...guess he couldn't hold any longer. HE even told me tonight that he had to go potty and if he did he would get Emily....mommmy said. how sick is that? what kind of person does that? We haven't even begun to potty train, he's 2 1/2 and honestly he's not ready, he's getting there but he's not ready; but Wizard says that Witch wants Munchkin to use the potty before his cousin that is also 2 1/2 so that she wins...some sort of sick game her and his sister in law have going on and have had going on for the last 10 + years. I just feel bad for Munchkin, Witch isn't willing to try any of the 'normal' stuff, her words were 'I think he's going to need more motivation'...I'm wondering how she could possibly know when we haven't tried anything?! I'm frustrated about this...and honestly I cried, I felt so bad for Munchkin, he's two and he just not ready. I just don't understand and what I have to remember is that I can not control her...just my reaction to her...ugh.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
