email I wanted to send but didn't

Witch

I know this is going to seem strange but I think we need to get thingsout in the open and move forward rather than drudging up old woundsand things that have been said, do you agree? In the last few months you and I have had some difficult moments and I think a lot of that is due to lack of communication between you and I. In past emails and conversations we both said we wanted to be partners but I don't think either of us has truly acted as a partner to the other, I'm speaking for myself, I have no idea how you feel. I'm willing to take part ofthe responsibility for our difficulties but I'm not willing to take sole responsibility. The part that I have the most trouble with is that when I'm feel like I'm trying and being nice or trying to spare your feelings you think I'm being mean and rubbing things in your face and I'm really not; I'm pretty much giving up, if I try I'm wrong if I don't I'm wrong so why don't you tell me what to do so that I know what your expectations are.....I'm not going to address the things that have been sited in previous discussions or emails but I'm asking; do you think that we can get along, can we both stop saying things about each other to Wizard, our friends and family? So in being honest with you I would really like you to stop saying things about me, saying things like 'I can't believe you're going to marry the first person you dated because you're too lazy', calling me white trash and other things is ct and I've said some things too but I am now trying to change the way you and I communicate just not a way for us to remain partners. I get it you don't like me and I don't like you and I'm not perfect but I'm trying I really am but I think you think that I"m out to make you look or feel bad and that's not the case. I want to function as a team, you, Wizard and me and someday the person you want to be a part of your life.