Tonight, just now actually....Wizard kicked me out of our bed...what would prompt my husband to do this? Well sit back relax and enjoy this story.....and I stand by if he doesn't go to counseling we're divorcing.
He and the girls came home from hitting league, neither child came to say hi or goodnight. Wizard came into our room where I was watching Lipstick Jungle on HULU.com (new fave website) and asked why I let Tin Man go to a friends to watch a movie, I simply answered because I wanted to; he huffed and made the comment he'll never learn, I commented back we have two separate sets of rules, he replied no, YOU have two separate sets of rules; I laughed sort of and said no, WE do; for example when Lion caused the whole upheaval with Glenda, Lion lied about what Glenda said, and what I said and she was NEVER punished, nothing was taken away from...in fact you, Witch and Glenda had a meeting and it all came to light and nothing changed....his response...his JOKE of a fucking response!!!!!!! The difference is Lion's 11 and Tin Man's 16; of course...why didn't I think of that?! I laughed and said NO, the difference is Tin Man isn't manipulating anyone and Lion is.....and then he threw my pillow and kicked me out of our room, LMAO LMAO He can go fuck himself....The very sad part about this....he really believes that because she's 11, she can't possibly lie and definitely can't manipulate...I bet when she's 16 and having sex he'll think she can't possibly be doing that either....idiot! If there were ever two people on this earth who really needed their heads examined when it comes to parenting its Wizard and Witch ....he believes as long as their good athletes and have good grades they're good people and she believes that as long as you give them everything they want they'll be fine....dumb fucks!
I'm so mad I'm shaking....literally shaking. My son is constantly being treated second rate...its my fault but the great part is...I can change it! I talked to Glenda tonight and she told me that every time Wizard comes home he doesn't say hi or how was your day to Tin Man he just tells him to either put away something or do something...never a how are you???? Interesting, of course I wouldn't know because I'm never here....Tin Man's never mentioned it but tonight Tin Man told Glenda that it wouldn't matter how he apologized to Wizard for lying it wouldn't be right or good enough and he was right; I told Tin Man that if he wanted his friend to come over that he needed to apologize, he did. I talked to Wizard shortly after and Wizard told me that Tin Man's friend was at the house; I asked if Tin Man apologized, he said why, and I told him that it was a condition of him being allowed to have his friend over. OH, Tin Man's punishment for lying about having a test...not going to my mom's this weekend...pretty hefty punishment...Wizard's kids never get punished like that, its always go to your room, no computer time, no phone time, etc...whatever! So back to my story, Glenda told me that Lion lied to her today as well, that she had her shirt tied really really short and Glenda told her to fix it and Lion said my dad lets me wear it like this all the time...LIE, he lets her tie it but not the way Glenda said she had it.....Glenda told Wizard that both girls were rude and disrespectful after school today...and she told him about Lion bragging about lying (Lion told Glenda that she could lie to anyone straight to their face and she wouldn't laugh or make a face or anything and noone would every know and she didn't feel guilty about lying) so Wizard just said to Glenda, ya, Dorothy told me that....his response when I told him 'I can't say anything because she said that to Glenda...WHATEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The bottom line, Wizard is going to allow his children to come between us and his angst or whatever it is for Tin Man to come between us and then he's going to end up alone....because no woman in her right mind would take on Witch, his kids and all the debt....no way...and no, I'm not in my right mind, LOL I am a saint; I do alot for this famiy and its time I got respect, praise and appreciation for all that I do and we are either going to be a WE family or we're not going to be anything...its not yours and mine, i'm done with that shit...way done.
I'm even hesitant at this point to buy the SUV, if we divorce what the hell am I going to do with a giant SUV???? I don't know, I'm just really really unsure right now....his episode this week has shown me that he is definitely jealous of Tin Man and definitely will be mean to him because of it....OH and I remember something else, he keeps bringing up Tin Man failing his Spanish test and how Scarecrow said that if she failed would be all upset...ok great that's one kid, not every kid is alike!!! Something Wizard doesn't understand at all he thinks that everyone despite where they grew up, etc should have an automatic need for perfection...not everyone is driven by being #1 or having the most money or the best clothes or the best record or straight A's....some kids like spending REAL time with their families...not just sitting in a car to/from the next game or a meal after the game or on the sidelines of the game, is it nice to go and support siblings...yes but its not the ONLY way of life!!!!!!!!
So tonight and tomorrow morning I'm sleeping on the couch and i'm not hiding it...I'm going to be VERY honest with the kids...we are fighting. Might be mean, stupid, hurtful or whatever but I'm not pretending....I'm done pretending....90% of the time when we leave this house as a 'family' I'm pretending...the happy 'family' pictures from 2 years ago were a nightmare just 20 mins before, Wizard and I fought, he yelled at Lion for something, was pissed of a Munchkin because he wanted something and then in the blink of an eye we looked like the perfect suburban family GAGS...i never wanted to be the faker and here I am....100% fake!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Every major event in our lives we have bickered because he can't handle the stress of his OWN KIDS, because he can't remain calm, etc...its always a rush and intense, its always urgent even if it doesn’t have to be...its a joke.... UGH....I think i'm done venting but I don't know...I'm still shaking but that could be because I'm cold.....no worries I'll be just fine, I've survived worse and I'm still strong, beautiful, independent and damn good mother!!!!
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